Hello dearest watchers and friends!
So, here comes the "update"!
Maybe some of you thought I'm already dead because I haven't uploaded anything and I never wrote a journal-entry. Well, I didn't have my own internet for half a year now. And I was living at somebody else's place. It was just 1 room so we didn't have enough space. My studies had been terrible and before summer I got ill. I haven't gone to university and nobody knew where I was because I didn't tell anybody about it. Why? Because I was ashamed and I didn't want anybody to worry. It took some time and then I worked really hard in summer to earn a lot of money. I stayed at my mother's place during the summer holidays and it was terrible. I was quarreling with my stepfather and after that he didn't want to talk to me anymore. Sort of silly, but anyways. It's not that serious. At least not for me. It's been a silly reason to be offended, but I have to respect his decision because he's a grown-up (and surprise, I'm a grown-up too!).
When I stayed at my mother's so long (2 months) we started to quarrel too. That was awful. And I felt lonely and unwanted because wherever I was going, nobody wanted me there.
After work I was meeting candy (you know him from my latest artwork, "found a place"). I got to know him on the birthday party of Yosh (the drummer of my favorite band Chemical Cancer
) on February. We got good friends some weeks after that party and then we started meeting each other almost every day.
And then you can imagine the rest I guess. I don't like to write a love-story here now
and I guess you can't imagine how it was anyways. Well, on summer he was the only one who wasn't treating me like a stray. He never did... but that's not the reason why i love him.
I know my mother didn't want anything bad to me, but I was really happy when I finished working because this was the day I left her place and went back to my new new
NEW flat. I think it was just too much for her. Her grown up kid living with her and all that stuff.
I live with my colleague Foetrix (got to know him in the 1st semester in University) now in a very beautiful flat. We started to build up the furniture and all that stuff. Yesterday we got a washing machine and today we installed our internet. It feels so good... a new life is starting. Finally! My own life!
I'm looking for a job at the moment. I need money so I can realize my projects. I want to finish the painting for my best friend (a present for his birthday, but it's long ago!) and I want to make a trailer for my book. Yeah, I wrote 2 books. They're called Still waking up
but they aren't public... not yet! I'll let you know when the time will come.
I think that's enough for now, I'm not dead!
And I gotta go now, I've got a lot to do!
Take care, I love you!